There was a time when I didn’t think I would ever have a family.
I had met someone and with them, I finally came to terms with the fact that I may never birth a baby and was happy to live life with this person. Things didn’t work out with them and I felt as if the world would collapse around me.
Then I met your dad. He was goofy and I instantly fell for him. Some may say it was love at first sight but I recall it as love at awkward first date conversation. Your dad literally did a two step dance while we stood waiting for our table to be ready.
We were together for a while when I told him that we may never have kids or it may take great effort for it to happen. I expected backlash but he said he would take it and day at a time with me.
We got pregnant right away. Talk about meant to be. But the day after finding out the most beautiful news, I woke with severe pain that had me hunched over and unable to walk.
The doctors said I was having a miscarriage and would perform a Dilation & Curettage (D&C) but on my request, would confirm through a blood test checking my hCG count. That test was on a Friday and I had to suffer through the weekend with the uncertainty of our condition.
When Monday came, I had accepted that we would have a difficult process to ahead of us. I called the doctors office to get my results. I was convinced that I would be told that my hCG count had decreased and would need to schedule a D&C. I held my breath. “You hCG counts are increasing on schedule. You are all set.” I thought I was hearing things. But it was true. I heard her correctly and told her that it was not the news that I was expecting. She confirmed and scheduled an ultrasound.
I was elated! If I’d listened to the doctors, I wouldn’t have you. But I see now that you are meant to be here, with us. You have touched so many people around you. You are intelligent and beautiful and I see a bright future ahead of you. I am so proud to be your mom and I thank you for allowing me to mold and hold you.
On this day… I celebrate you and all you add to our lives. I love you Ling Ling :-*