December first marked the beginning of Advent in the Christian community. Advent is defined as the arrival of a notable person, so in the case of us Christians, that person is Jesus. Many people enjoy this festive time of year because it’s a season of giving and receiving but most of all, it’s the time of year that the people in the working industry receive a cluster of days off.
I like to think of this season as a time of reflection. 2019 has been a horrible year. I lost my first love: my mommy; my Queen; my every day conversation; a piece of my soul. She was only 60 years old and there was so much more for us to do together but it all ended on August 12th. She was diagnosed with cancer early in the year and we spent the whole year trying to beat it. My mom tried to prepare me for what eventually happened but I wouldn’t hear of it. I couldn’t imagine losing her so soon. Now, as the grieving process skews my reality, I reflect on the purpose of the events of 2019.
There is a bible verse, Proverbs 3:5-6, that states “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your path straight.” Many times, our brains try to piece together events so to understand all angles for satisfaction and acceptance. This rarely works because it’s difficult to find acceptance in situations that go against our wishes. No one wants to have relationship turmoil or have their home broken into, so how can we accept that our lives are not moving smoothly? Exactly! But I was thinking about the situations that we do find satisfaction and thought that is would be a great start in trying to make sense of the things that do not.
My first example is surgery. I follow a brave little boy named Christian on Facebook. He was born without eyes and facial deformities. His story is quite inspiring because he and his mother are an example of trusting the process and having faith. After having surgery, our bodies are hit. We are bloated with inflammation to aid in healing and have scars and deformities. This is not the expected results and the doctors will tell us that we are healing well and should be healed in X amount of time. We care for ourselves and when the time arrives, our bodies have transformed into what we were expecting. In this scenario, we trusted the process and reaped the reward.
Music. Your first musical instrument lesson is never going to be great as the latest lesson. With each practice session and lesson, you become more confident and more proficient. If you base your musical ability on how horrible you sound and not on how great you can potentially be, you will never be great. Musicians trust the process and keep practicing and brings us musical genius to our ears.
As I reflect on this year, I am angry at the events that have transpired but I am keeping my mind open, faithfully believing that everything happened for a reason and there is a light at the end of the tunnel… this very dark and dank tunnel. I may not understand the reasons and purpose but I will trust in the process and eventually be on a straight path.
There is something greater at work in our lives and we live our best lives because of it. So, reflect on events but trust in the process.