Spiritual awakening or enlightenment is a process where a person figures out that we are all connected. There are many definitions of what a spiritual awakening is and signs that one is going through an awakening but all definitions lead to oneness. It’s like going from living in a dream world to waking up and seeing things more clearly – escaping the matrix. Most people going through an awakening begin with questions and end with beautiful inner peace. Have you or do you know anyone who has gone or is going through an awakening?
I want to share my story. This will be lengthy so I apologize in advance.
I have been partially living my awakening in secret. I don’t care what people think but I don’t like negative energy being thrown at me. But the time is now.
I can’t pinpoint when my spiritual awakening process began but I can tell you that I am nearer to beautiful inner peace. As a child, I always questioned everything. Before making a decision to do anything, I would process it internally and weigh the moral pros and cons. Obviously this did not make me many friends. I never felt the need to do things to fit in and therefore I felt like I didn’t fit into any group or club, leading me to spend time with my thoughts. If I had to put my spiritual awakening into stages, my stages would be: 1. Unhappiness and emptiness. 2. Perception Shifts. 3. Seeking Answers and meaning. 4. Finding answers and experiencing breakthroughs. 5. Disillusionment and feeling lost. 6. Deeper inner work. 7. Integration, expansion, joy
Stage one: unhappiness and emptiness. I grew up in a Christian household but again, I questioned every aspect of the religion. Deep inside me, something told me there was a deeper meaning to it all. I could never bring myself to be as devout as my mother. Outside of the churches at home, I saw a lot of hypocrisy. This is nothing new. You don’t need to be going through an awakening to see it but it hurt me to be a part of it. So many people miss the meaning behind the teachings of Jesus and think that going to church honors their relationship with God.
This led me to stage two, perception shifts. In my awakening, I have learned that the relationship is one to one and resides in your soul, not within the pages of a book. There are people who can help strengthen your relationship to God but he speaks to us all; we just need to listen. Needless to say, religion is NOT a big part of my life. I believe in God, I know Jesus (a story for another day) and my spiritual base will probably always be Christianity as it is how I have grown up to understand life.
I want to say that I began this blog during stage three seeking answers and meaning. I have trouble communicating my thoughts and it occurred to me that I should start a blog. I was reading so many books, trying to gain understanding of my purpose in life. I was searching for equanimity, searching for the meaning of life and trying to understand why I was a fish attempting to swim against the current. I have always wanted to help people and the feeling continued to grow and is still growing inside me. By opening myself up and sharing some of my thoughts, answers began to surface, leading to stage four.
Not only did I begin to find answers, I also experienced breakthroughs. One thing that I have always had was a voice of reason speaking to me. No, I do not have mental ailments. We are all given guides to help us navigate through this hazy world. I don’t know who guided the younger me but I have met guides in my adult years. Again, I secretly sought out spiritual people who can help me understand the changes I was experiencing.
I came across someone who gave me a mediation to meet my guides. With an open mind, all things are possible. Here is where I met my teacher, Mr. Valdez. I later found out that he was a Venezuelan scholar during his lifetime. During the meditation, my special place in my mind was created. It is a place where I complete all my spiritual work. During this same time period, I found a group of people who were also journeying the spiritual world. We were the psychic support group and we helped each other navigate and use our gifts. I learned some very great techniques to help me learn about my gifts. I have many gifts (psychic, empath, medium, healer, to name a few) and I have a lot of work ahead of me.
I have had many breakthroughs. From precognitive events to speaking with spirit and many thing in between. I will save those stories for another time but I must say that Mr. Valdez helped me with answers and made me feel like I was finally finding my place in the world.
I experienced stage 5- disillusionment and feeling lost when my mom died. If you’re familiar with my blog, you already know. I had more confidence in my spirituality and in losing her, I again felt lost and worthless. I thought: maybe my gifts were not what they seemed. I searched for peace externally and dismissed everything going on inside me. My mom stayed with me. She placed herself in my special place in my mind and encouraged me from the other side. Grief is different when your brain shares images of death and funeral but the person continues to show love. It’s unexplainable.
I feel myself rounding out of being disillusioned and entering the next stage of deeper inner work. Mr Valdez is no longer my teacher. I now have an ancestor who is helping me through my next lessons. I feel grateful as I am very vested in my ancestral history. I do believe that I will go through iterations of stage four through six before settling into deep joy and if that is my path, I will walk it.
I share some of my story in hopes that it will help someone else. I am finding the confidence to say that I have spiritual gifts to share with the world. I am me and I am exactly who God created me to be.
Sending love and light into the world!