These past few years have not been kind to us. I don’t know about you, but I feel like murphy’s law was in play in my life. No matter what I had going on in life, things were never turning out according to plan.
Before the pandemic, I felt like I was in a great place spiritually. I was learning about myself, living life to the fullest, and learning how to navigate the world with more equanimity. Up until a few months ago, I was feeling lost. I felt like I was very disconnected from my life goals and mostly, I felt disconnected from myself.
I found it difficult to enjoy many of the things that I once did. I once was motivated to write, read, draw and be creative but it was like the spark of light was extinguished from my soul. I was fractured.
I was drowning and my fight or flight instincts kicked in. It was here when I realized I needed to come back to myself. I was forgetting who I was and who I was striving to be. I was giving of myself and my cup was no longer full. I was giving so that I didn’t have to face my own shadows. The shadows were closing in and I had to make a change.
I have a meditation routine but I wasn’t doing much else to support myself. I felt overwhelmed with everyday life and adding to it was not appealing. But I reminded myself that I needed to come back to myself. I told myself that in order to care for others, I need to show love to myself.
My wish for you is, no matter what you have going on in your life; the tough roads you must travel, you remember that you matter and you must, despite everything else, come back to yourself.
Love yourself first and love will pour out from you and into the world.
Look Within 