Finding the calm in the chaos
Today, I am 40 years old. Some people hate growing old but I enjoy the privilege of aging and all the knowledge that comes along with it. The last 12 months have taught me so many things and I wanted to take a moment to share some of those things with you on my birthday:… Continue reading Here’s to a new chapter!
I have always been a creature of habit. I like things a certain way and dislike last minute changes. I wasn't always like this but after the military, something in my brain changed. I have been working on myself for my whole entire adult life. I used to think that once you made it to… Continue reading My constant is change.
I have PTSD. My life is like living on an emotional/psychological roller coaster. When life is good... oh it's the greatest. But when I am at the bottom of that hill, I don't even realize I am depressed until I've been depressed for some time. I am currently climbing out of a valley and I… Continue reading I may not have everything I want…
I am afraid of dying. I am okay with the thought of my death but my fear lies with the people I leave behind. I have PTSD and have been suicidal a few moments in my life. The number one thing that kept me from taking the steps in ending my life was my loved… Continue reading Fin.
I have been having disturbing dreams for the past few weeks and I am unsure on how to proceed. My latest dream has rocked me to the core. I woke with my heart pounding because the sound of electric shock was so real. my senses were in overdrive and after the initial shock wore off,… Continue reading Elusive Peace
Today, in the US, is Veteran's Day. My Facebook feed was full of so many people thanking others for their service and memes about what it means to be a Veteran. I am a Veteran! I I did not have the opportunity to serve my whole term because I suffered from a back injury but when… Continue reading Service before self
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